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May. 30th, 2011 | 10:37 pm

Sometimes I feel kind of... insignificant and out of place. IRL and on the internet - I know all these wonderful people, and they're doing all these amazing things and I just... can't. Not clever enough, I guess. I'm just here, doing my own insignificant things that only amuse and interest me. Probably no-one would notice if I stopped.

I don't really mind though. I like it on my own. It's just... lonely sometimes. Obviously. And wondering if I'll ever be good enough to fit in anywhere gets depressing sometimes, before I remember that hey, I'm me, and that should be good enough, I suppose. I don't really need other people. I just like them.

I am so going to look back at this tomorrow and facepalm for posting such ridiculous drivel. Well, no matter.

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(Nickname) Anime

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from: animegurl1990
date: May. 30th, 2011 12:49 pm (UTC)
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/SLAPS SOME SENSE INTO YOU

WHAT IS THIS NONSENSE??? YOU ARE A WONDERFUL, AMAZING, FUNNY, KIND, SUPER SMART AND AWESOME PERSON. NOTHING YOU DO IS INSIGNIFICANT. ESPECIALLY IF IT MAKES YOU HAPPY.

AND WHAT IS THIS ABOUT NOT FITTING IN? DO I NEED TO REMIND YOU OF ALL THE INSANE FRIENDS YOU HAVE? ME INCLUDED? (hopefully)

DON'T MAKE ME COME DOWN THERE!

/HUGS YOU FOREVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER

Seriously. Things will feel better soon. Just remember that people love you and want you to be happy. Never forget that. ^^

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light up the stage and watch me kick out the jams

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from: openxthexbox
date: May. 31st, 2011 05:01 am (UTC)
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OKAY HI, I LOVE YOU.

Seriously, I read this this morning before school but didn't have time to reply, but it made me happy thinking about it all day. YOU ARE QUITE THE AMAZING, WONDERFUL, FUNNY, KIND, SMART, AND AWESOME PERSON YOURSELF.

I did say I would look back on this tomorrow and facepalm, which I did, because why so emo, self? BUT THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL GOOD ABOUT LIFE AGAIN.

/HUGS FOREVER

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(Nickname) Anime

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from: animegurl1990
date: May. 31st, 2011 05:58 am (UTC)
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XD

I'm glad I was able to help!

/HUGS MORE

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light up the stage and watch me kick out the jams

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from: openxthexbox
date: May. 31st, 2011 05:59 am (UTC)
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=D

Seriously, you are most wonderful.

/HUGS OF EPIC

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from: ellieet
date: May. 31st, 2011 08:13 pm (UTC)
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Everyone feels like that, my dear. I know I do. And it's nothing to do with being clever enough, or whatever... we are all unique to ourselves. We have to make sure we're happy with who we are; got to do the things that mean the most to us, and no-one else. I remember rather feeling like this when I first started university and I posted an Lj-entry quite similar.

I know what you mean about being lonely though. I don't really have a best friend; I mean, I have all these wonderful friends who I'm close to in different ways, but I don't have a person who can balance me out. I just don't have a good friend who I can allow into my life with ease; who I'd be happy to see at all hours, who I could have a laugh with. The Sherlock to my John. But I live in hope.

Do your own thing, my love. Do what you're good at. For example, I might not be the cleverest person on the planet, but when it comes to reading out The Jabberwocky in class, then I'm cheered on for it afterwards, or detailing a film to someone who hasn't seen it, then I'm congratulated on my story-telling ability (in particular, my friends in America told me they didn't need to see Atonement after I'd taken them briefly through it because I'd told it so beautifully and they were all captivated) or just writing, then I'm in my element. Curiously enough, while my parents believe in my ability to write, at the same time it's also a bit of a bane in our house because I'm often shutting myself away for hours rather than getting outside, interacting, and I hate being interrupted. My parents aren't writers, so they don't really "get" it, but that's fine, because that's just the way it is. As long as I'm happy, I'm fine.

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from: openxthexbox
date: Jun. 1st, 2011 07:16 am (UTC)
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I honestly don't know what to say except thank you so much for this lovely comment. Everything you've said is very true for me (and expressed much more eloquently than I could ever do, heh), and it's a nice feeling to know I'm not alone.

Oddly, my parents don't 'get' some of my habits either - they're always asking me to explain what I'm doing all afternoon and I can't find a way to express the diversity of fandom and internet culture and how all these different things make me happy. But that's life, I'm happy with how I am.

Once again dear, thank you so much for this comment. It made my day brighter, and I hope you find the Sherlock to your John someday, because you deserve it. ♥

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from: agencebandit
date: Jun. 1st, 2011 10:32 am (UTC)
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You're never alone, bb

If you ever want to talk about ANYTHING, and I literally mean ANYTHING, call me and I will drop everything and come round to your place, even if it means I have to 3 buses and train.

You're my best friend and I love you :)

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from: agencebandit
date: Jun. 1st, 2011 10:33 am (UTC)
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/ creeper LJ stalking

Also, thank you for the site pimpage :3

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light up the stage and watch me kick out the jams

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from: openxthexbox
date: Jun. 1st, 2011 10:36 am (UTC)
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You creepy stalker you. :)

Don't worry about me, hun, I was just feeling weird and venting. Got mood swings like Evan, yo. Thank you saying that, though. Love you bb.

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